What's Your Personality Type?

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

just discover blogthings.com....

hmmm... maybe true... what's the difference between a romantic realist and a realistic romantic?

You Are A Romantic Realist

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance. Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know. And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball... But you'd never admit it to your friends!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

pictures

I realised today that I haven't taken very many pictures this past years. If Jean has not send me pictures, I wouldn't even have any pictures from my US trip.

Anyways, some pictures from the past year I have posted up on the web:


http://community.webshots.com/user/danceklutz

Enjoy!

death

It's amazing how we go through life taking things for granted and blissfully ignoring the fact that we are going to die one day. Talking about death makes a lot of people uneasy. I particularly hate it when my parents talk about death....

Today I remembered Polly Whitmarsh, who was my roommate freshman year. She passed away a few years back from brain tumor. I remembered a conversation we had about death and how we liked to go. As I think back on her battle with cancer and how she approached it, I am really amazed and would hope that I view life the way she does. Polly's first thoughts when she got the news that she had tumor was the impact it would make to her family, especially her mom. She remained cheerful even going through the painful surgeries and chemo and other treatments... Even when she was losing her hair and getting tired easily, she still sang in church and played basketball! Even when she was terminal, she still sang ... I do hope, however I pass on, I face live and whatever it brings and death, in the same cheerful manner...

No doubt I'll be complaining a lot (that's how I am) but not letting anything defeat me.


This is the last picture I have of Polly (with her nephew)...

Sleep

It's been about a month since my vacation to US... and I have yet to put in more than 7 hours of sleep a night... 7 hours being the max but the median is more like 5 hours....

It's frustrating as I know I should be sleeping more.. but I would automatically wake up! Perhaps I should start going for spinning classes and tire myself out to sleep... hmmm.. that's an idea but I am still mentally blocked against anything bicycle...

It's not like I wake up tired... or go to bed exhausted... I just don't sleep enough....

Any tips for longer period of night zzzzz?

Speaking in public

I was reminded recently (and am being continually reminded) on how far I have come in terms of public speaking.... What brought about this reminder was through this training I'm doing... What I'm doing is learning how to be a bodypump instructor.. Part of it is learning how to coach and instruct a class through various exercises... Somebody made a passing comment about my passing the assessment well was that I was comfortable speaking.... %#@*%&!!! I did not know how to react cause that is NO WAY that I was comfortable speaking... granted that this person didn't know me very well... but the years of struggle of tears and sweat in my battling my fear of public speaking... SPEECHLESS!!

To bring it back to the beginning... Waaaayyyy back when I was still in school... There was a time when I had to say something in front of the class... I froze up and could not utter a word.. to the point that I can't even remember my name... I stood up there for a few minutes and sat back down again without saying a word..

Ever since then I was terrified to talk in front a group of people.. yup.. terrified in terms of feeling nausea and cold sweat and all.. I could talk to people, no problem.. I could even talk in bible study discussions... I could even be in plays and sing on stage... but ask me to stand in front of a group of people and talk... NO WAY!

I know that the fear of public speaking is very common and it is usually the fear of the unknown... but here I am, fearing something that history will repeat itself and I'll make a fool out of myself again...

As I grew up, I avoided anything that would require me to speak in front of a crowd... (not easy feat as I was in Singapore and US schooling system as well as being a church ministry leader)... When I was 19/20, I felt that God wanted me to really share my testimonial of what He has done in my life... How am I going to do that?!? I really struggled with this... THERE IS NO WAY I WAS GOING TO STAND UP AND TALK! God was everloving persistent and continually reminded me that when I'm up there, it is not me... I'm just the vessel for Him... I still remember the back and forth struggle I had with myself and God... but slightly after my 21st birthday, I stood up in church and talked about my journey as a Christian...

That was probably one of the hardest thing I have ever done! It wasn't a great speach, it wasn't that hundreds of people came to Christ, it wasn't anything spectacular other than the fact that I ALLOWED GOD TO BE BIGGER THAN MY FEAR... I was so drained after that I took a looonngg nap :D

In the subsequent years, I continually struggle with it.. I still get nausea and still break out in cold sweat... but I was determined to "cliche-ly" say that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...

Today, I'm still not a good public speaker... but I can talk in front of people without looking like a fool... When I hear the casual comment of me being comfortable, I was really angry as IT IS SO NOT COMFORTABLE FOR ME... and that in someways, the tears and sweat are discounted... but then I realised that Wow! God has really brought me so far that someone thinks I'm comfortable....

With this bodypump training, I'm learning about voice modulations, what commands work, how to take control of the class' attention... (well, there is the whole physical aspect of the training as well)... Of course there is much more work to be done and more room to improve... but Glory be to God who has brought me this far and Is continually bringing me further!

*sigh*... now that my office network has blocked friendster... I now have to use this to blog... hahaha... it's not like that blog that much anyways...

I was talking about blogging with some friends, and it's funny how actually we really do go through life with very interesting things to talk about... but because we are so boring people, we don't know how to express it...